May 31, 2015 Leave a comment
Today for the first time in my life I went to see the horse riding competition in Cabourg. It was little rainy but the weather was just fine. I was quite excited to see how it goes. In the middle of Hippodrome there were shops selling gears. I looked around first some helmets and when I saw the price, I couldn’t breath hahaha. 750 euros for one helmet !!! I quietly left the shop and started to watch the competition. There were three people (two girls and one boy they seem around seventeen to nineteen years old) on the competition stage. They looked great and their horse obviously are good breeds tall and strong, wearing ear bonnets. One girl set off for a nice jump but before the middle poll she had some problem; I felt it instantly. The horse didn’t make it (of course) and this girl was upset, she whipped her horse. I was really not feeling well. Then I saw another girl gave a whip to her horse whatever the reason was…. I didn’t want to watch it any more. I walked away with totally broken heart. So many horses were outside parking confined in a box waiting for their turn. I looked their eyes, I couldn’t read their emotions. So these are all part of competition…. I heard girls saying often ‘oh they don’t feel much pain, they have strong physic, a whip doesn’t do any harm. You have to show them that you are the controller.’ Horse doesn’t feel much pain? How do we know that? I’ve been doing horse riding for 5 months now which means still very beginner level but each time of riding, the feeling of pleasure increases. What I’m learning from horse riding is actually great. I learn how to communicate with them, how they behave, how they react and how my body can be rhythmical through horse’s movement. But the true factor of horse riding is that horses are sacrificing for my pleasure. I try to understand what they meant when they refuse my asking instead of ‘making them listen’. Some advanced level people kept saying that I needed to be more forceful. But even though I am just a beginner I feel that I have to find my own way to communicate with riding horses without any form of violence. Otherwise there is no point doing horse riding. Horse riding is a relationship with horses. It’s not a sport like surfing, cycling or skateboarding. It is involved with living animals who feel the emotion (pain and joy). They are not machines or slaves. The direct contact with animals makes my mind to grow deeper and thoughtful for the world. I intend to continue riding until the session is over but now a question remains in my mind. Is it enough to ride with caring and loving mind or should I give up horse riding.. if there is a way to do horse riding without giving them pain, I will continue and if not I won’t. On the way back home I was driving with sadness of witnessing the violence in teenage girls.I think they don’t know what they are doing. Riding an animal who can’t speak and feeling superior over those animals is not that difficult thing to do as healthy egocentric human. In the vast yellow flowery Spring field far from the road where I was driving, there were herds of horses and cows. The beauty which doesn’t belong to human’s possession. Being human who have tremendous capacity to care and think more, can be so meaningless when we are ignorant… The lies we make and we don’t want to correct them because there are such pleasures on our side… But this world is made for fairness, without it everything doesn’t go as it should be. Outside my window every drop of rain is absorbed by earth and all greens are moving very subtle by shallow wind.
Follow ups in July
The month of June I started to study about horse and found out several things I haven’t learned before. They brought some changes to my daily life. I decided to continue horse riding after all. Because since I started to care of horses, I wanted to learn more about them. If I stop riding, there is no way getting to know them more. When I started horse riding, I only rode one horse ‘Quidam’ and I was falling for him. I thought we made very good match and I wanted to ride him only. Deep in me I knew that it wasn’t right but I wanted to hang on to him as first love kind. Then one day Florence told me that everyone wants to ride Quidam, he is a popular one. I was shocked hahaha. Since then I am able to enjoy riding all different horses. First of changes is that I stopped to eat any meat any more. I saw how people kills horses for food after they were useless from horse racing (that horrible game). Those videos gave me an unforgettable shock. I didn’t want to take any part of those violence of human living so I gave up all meats. Second is caring of horses more than before. They are constantly talking to me about what makes them not comfortable or what they desire. Why we only need to insist our own way when they give us a favor? Because I am the leader, dominant and generous skillful tyranny? What is my purpose of riding? To make horses as my slaves? well I am not, so I let them be when they want to do things their own, I consider their needs using my intuition and when I really want to do something ( I feel they know at that moment, they are very intelligent) they work for me. So far with my short experiences it works quite fine that way. I sometimes needs a whip but that’s only because some horses move when they know I have a whip. But the bits still make my heart ache. I know how easy to get used to it, used to hurt them and feel nothing about it. I don’t want to be ‘Past’ belonging human being who says ‘they feel nothing!’ Some future belonging people in the world already started to ride without bits and such deep concern into actions. In not so far future, every horse riding club will change its method. I love horse smells and feel that each horse has different energy and sensibility while I am riding. I also love to talk to them. I pay for horse riding but sometimes I can’t ride as I wish and it made me frustrated among groups in the beginning. I blamed horses, but I soon realized that my ugly mind tried to force horses. Without caring and respecting their emotions, horse riding can be no meaningful at all for both side. I want my riding horses feel happy as much I feel; that’s my wish. My appreciation for horses is increasing and bring something new each time I ride them. They are incredible… As if we play mixing each other’s energy together and it’s very little to do with skillful practice. I’m also very thankful to my kind teachers, lovely people on earth.